My Journey so far:
This weekend marks a year since I started this blog and began my journey to a healthier me. Originally I started out as weight loss blog and as of this morning I’m down 50lbs (22.6kg) so I guess you can say I was pretty successful. Above are some of my ‘transformations’.
I have no pictures of me at my heaviest because I felt worthless and couldn’t bare to even look at myself. That was one of the reasons why I decided to lose weight because I thought that becoming skinnier would magically make me Happy. I was wrong. Very wrong. What I have learnt is that you just have to love and appreciate your body no matter what stage it’s at. You can accept you body whilst still wanting to strive for better. That’s the real secret to becoming happy with your image.
When I first started I had no clue about nutrition or proper training and even looking back at some of my first posts I’m embarrassed by how clueless I was. What I’m trying to say is that with the internet at our fingertips it’s now easier than ever to properly research stuff, and make sure you’re not harming yourself. So do it. Take your time, get as much help as possible. Take care of yourself, you’re worth it!
There’s also a dark side to weight loss and that’s why I included the middle bottom picture. I took that picture when I was at my lowest weight along this journey and battling with an eating disorder (BED). You’re always trying to make yourself smaller and less as if you don’t deserve the space you occupy. I restricted what foods I could eat, this resulted in crazy cravings and urges. I would sit down and eat a couple of thousand calories in one sitting, even though I knew what I was doing was counter productive. I’ve been recovering and I’m currently 22 days binge free. So I’m pretty happy about that. If you suffer from an eating disorder just know that you too can overcome it and win. I know you can. And when it comes to weight loss, you deserve they space you occupy.
Weightloss in theory is easy. It’s all about a calorie deficit. Just burn more calories than you’re eating. In practice it’s much more difficult, believe me I know. It takes years to develop unhealthy habits and let me tell you they don’t just disappear over night. As much as you wish they would.
This journey has taught me a lot. About life, myself and even others. This year was a big change for me, finishing school, getting a job, going to University, meeting new people and traveling. All the time also trying to lose weight and become healthier. I spent a lot of time outside of my comfort zone, but it’s made me grow as a person and practically eradicated my social anxiety.
The benefits of this journey spill over into every aspect of your life. You become more confident and determined. Your focus and energy levels increase so much. I’m a much happier, healthier and motivated person. And that’s the real magic behind this journey.
I’ve refocused my aims from weight loss more so to fitness and strength gains. My weight will no longer restrict me and hinder me. I will not be held accountable by my weight in relation to gravity. I will no longer feel guilty for taking up space. Instead I will measure my progress with progress, if that makes sense? If I can hold a yoga pose for longer, that’s progress. If I can run for 2 seconds longer that’s progress. If I can do an extra rep or increase the weight that’s progress. Measurement and pictures will also help.
If any of you ever want any help with anything or just someone to talk to my ask box is always open. I’ll try and help if I can. Just remember I’m in no way qualified. Unfortunately this journey didn’t improve my time management skills hahaha so it might take me a while to reply, but I will. G’luck and take care of yourselves. I mean it!